Sometimes you hear stories about how everything always falls perfectly into place and everything is just peachy.... well that never really seems to happen for me. All of the things that seem will work out wonderfully always have to have some sort of catch. Like I am always fighting for everything I want. I was talking to my mom a little bit about this and she said that things are never easy for our family. That we always experience the trials before the blessings. My only comment was that we should take it as a compliment. I think we only get the trials because God knows that we can handle them. That we will fight for want we want and we will get it (if it's a righteous cause) and that we will learn from it and gain more than we could have imagined. It's just hard to remember that when the trials are staring you in the face.
I always love writing my thoughts out... it always helps me to see what I need to do and gives me the extra push to keep going. I see what I need to do and then I can do it. I just have to try not to do it grudgingly.
But God really is in control and I do need to realize the blessings that I have right now. The trials can and will be overcome, I just have to stay on God's side.
